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Thursday, April 30, 2009

In other news...

I'm now done with high school!
It's suprisingly bittersweet..
idk what came over me as the last time i walked those halls..
i accidently freaked out a little! yikes!

Graduation is May 14 and I have yet to find a dress..blahhhh.
I want the right one! I'm really specific about this stuff!

I also have recently become freakishly obsessed with..

- acoustic guitar
- Fluorescent Adolescent - The Arctic Monkeys
- The Beatles' Magical Mystery Tour
- Honda Civics
- Smoothie King



I have a new boyfriend :)

Monday, April 20, 2009

Are we as safe as we let ourselves believe?

So my Spring Break was pretty much off the chain. And yes, i'm aware that the only person who still thinks that phrase is cool is Ryan Lowe...

But either way, it was cool. I really cant recall a day that i didnt have fun with somebody..and sleeping late was soooo nice. The only thing that got me out of bed this morning was knowing that i only have 1 week of high school left!!
which at the same time kind of made me want to stay in bed...

i'm getting nervous!

i'm pretty much digging The Wellness Center.
of course not as much as Fitness Plus...but it's time to let that go i guess...though i still cant get myself to take the tag off my key chain...haha...wishful thinking i suppose.

dashboard has over taken my musical preference once again.

Monday, April 13, 2009

I dont have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way...

that he loves us, Oh how he loves.

So, as is everyone else seems to be recently, I am officially obsessed with John Mark Mcmillan's Oh How He Loves Us. But what really gets me about it is the part of the song that he personalizes..when he starts with "I thought about You the day steven died..." that part...he works his way through it in tears...between the hard and painful gulps...he manages to say that "I know that i still love you God, despite the agony..." and you can here the pain in his voice as he says this.
That is real. To still love God..despite that he took your best friend...i wanna be like that.

ANYHOW, my point of typing this was...
that during my time with God today..i was really convicted about something.
There is this girl i've known for a couple of years now. I've been a friend to her because she really needed someone and she's had a tough life...but i was never really willing to get that close to know those people? I think all of us have one of those people in our lives.
But yeah..she's struggled through similar struggles and i've tried to help out...but of much as was convenient for me.
Without revealing too much detail, all i'm going to say is that she is now suffering a heavy consequence to her actions. A consequence I MYSELF could be suffering with her at this very moment if it had not been for God's incredible, out of this world, grace and mercy on me. Yet...i forget about that so often...and when she talks to me i just say as little as possible..or blow her off because i have something more important to do. Now, i'm not flat out mean to her, and i do give her the time of day, but i could be a little more loving. a lot more loving. She asks me to hang out because she has no friends...and i turn her down, knowing that i have nothing better to do. Things like that.
And in my prayer time today...i just fell to my knees in conviction..had i forgotten God's grace in my life? Had i taken for granted what he saved me from and treated it like i had deserved this grace?? Who am i to not love someone just like me..

i'm not even sure how to finish this...
all i know is i gotta change it.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Emily is...

being a typical teenager this week.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


He is sensible and
so incredible and
all my single friends are jealous.
He says everything i need to hear and
its like I couldnt ask for anything better.

He opens up my door and
i get into his his car and
he says "You look beautiful tonight."
And i feel perfectly fine.

but i miss..
Screamin' and fightin' and kissin' in the rain.
And 2 a.m. and i'm cursin' your name.
so in love that we act insane..
and that's the way i loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush and
i never knew i could feel that much.
and that's the way i loved you.

Friday, April 3, 2009

What a night for a dance..

you know, i'm a dancin' machine.
with the fire in my bones and the sweet taste of kerosene..

all this time you were precious to me.
But all the while i was dreamin' of revelry!

ohhh my Kings of Leon.

This has been a week.
a pretty good one though.
the beginning was really rough...staying up all night to finish a term paper and a bio project...
then working all day the next day...getting home at 6 and sleeping 14 hours that night!
yes..that was great!
the latter part of the week has been much nicer to me.
"Life could you be a little softer to me? Life could you be more gentle to me?"
wow. it's been a looooooooooong time since i've thought of that song.

only like 2 more actual weeks in school.
you would not BELIEVE the anticipation. anxiety. excitement.
oh my word, it's finally happening!