I need to be bold, need to jump in the cold water.

I absolutley love the musical styling of Joshua Radin.
lol.

He reminds me of me and angela...
miss her.


I did not sleep well at all last night. I tossed and turned and tossed and turned some more. I covered my head with blankets..i watched the clock..i KNEW why i could not sleep. I KNEW IT.
God wanted me up. He wanted me to come to Him..come sit and listen. I just did NOT want to. Half of it was because i was scared of what he had to say..the other half because i really did not want to get up out of bed.
So i spent a miserable night, only to give in when it turned to morning. I got up..got my bible..devotional..and headed to the chair by the window.
Within the first few SECONDS of giving god the reigns this morning...He told me "You're going to be a leader. I want you to be a leader."
I have no idea where or when or how or what of...but thats what He had to say. I continued my bible study and reading and praying...and felt much more relieved than i had in nights.
If i cant sleep tonight,
it'll be because i'm too busy wondering what i'll be leading..lol.

God's pretty neat ya know it?
I like hearing things from Him. Even though letting him have free reign in my life so often scares me to death..
it's much better that way.

whether i acknowledge it or not, he still always knows what he's doing.